Xander’s Birthday is today. We’ve got a soccer party planned for the afternoon, I’ll talk about that tonight or tomorrow. I just wanted to take a quick moment to reflect on the day.
It’s amazing how fast 7 years go by. I’m a very involved Dad, I think most people would agree. Even with that though, it’s hard not to think about all I’ve missed in the last 7 years. All the times I was too tired from work to get up and play a game with him, or read to him, or any number of things that when you are tired, just don’t seem as important as having your eyes closed. At the same time, I try to remember all the times when I did make the extra effort. When I did get up after a long day at work to play Sorry or Uno with him. When I spent time laying in bed with him reading even after I was ready to go sleep myself. Or when I spent time playing outside in the cold when I was ready to go inside and sit down and drink coffee.
I guess all you can do is the best you can at the time. And that is what I always try to do. It’s hard to not have regrets about the things you missed and didn’t do, but you can’t focus on that except as a way to motivate yourself to do better in the future.
